Double Dutch

Leaning in and out in hiccups
Looking,
Waiting,
Focused.
Searching for the perfect split second to leap
I try to catch your eye
Find the rhythm in your easy dimpled smile
but
My hiccups fall out of sync as your eyes dart away, mouth fixed as stone
And oh!
I remember
I remember that you’ve done this many times before,
And how weary your arms must be,
Strong and warm and tired,
And so I lean back
Stilling myself
For You
Devouring the spoiled sweetmeats
Grateful for the preparation
And I wrap the decaying mantle, reluctantly knitted from your relief, around my shrinking shoulders
And shiver away again
Again